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G & G leave the scene

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Grammy & Grampy's last day with the girls
Grammy & Grampy’s last day with the girls, originally uploaded by Kate Chan.

It’s official. Well, wait. A couple things are official and they are as follows:

  1. We are a four person household.
  2. There is no one else in the house who drinks coffee…which means no matter WHAT time I get up… I get to make it.
  3. I am suffering from Mom-Withdrawal.  Seriously.  It’s rather heartache inducing and painful.
  4. My mom and dad have left my girls with HIGH expectations for laugher, love, attention and parenting.  Here’s hoping we can live up to it.
  5. No one can meet your needs like your Mom can.  (Well, okay.. my Love usually can…but he has been back at work since week 2.)
  6. Zoe has adopted Grammy-speak for many things.  Namely the fleece blanket is now called “The Toasty” as in “bundle up and stay toasty”.
  7. It will make your heart sing and you nostalgic mind reel when you see your 2 year old running for hugs and kisses from her Grammy and Grampy.
  8. Grampy’s itchy beard is a FAR second to Grammy’s sweet kisses in the mind of a two year old.
  9. Hauling two kids, groceries, diaper what-nots, etc is NOT going to be easy.  But I can do it.  (It will be easier when I am healed from surgery, I hope!)
  10. I love my parents and so does my Love, the Chicklet and the Peanut.  Oh, we are so very thankful for the help my mom and dad have been able to provide for the last six weeks.  Truly.  Thank you, guys.

What have you learned?

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Reading together

Reading Together, originally uploaded by Kate Chan.

It’s 1:30 in the morning and here I sit with a laptop on my knees, a baby snorgling (really…she already has a cold) next to me and some bad reruns on TV to entertain my brain while I wait for the imp to completely crash.  Somehow, in the last two and half weeks, I have lost complete control over any “free time” that used to exist in my life.  Somehow?  OH YEAH!  Babies will do that to ya, huh?  Truthfully, the bigger hurdle for me has been the very painful and not-so-smooth recovery from my c-section.  It means I can’t pick up anything heavier than our now 7 pound little one… nor walk far… nor do the stairs in our house… etc.  THAT is killing me.  More than anything in the world, I miss carrying and playing with Zoe.  Now, since I’m relatively confined to a minimal movement lifestyle, I have begun to relish my mornings waking up with Zoe in bed with me and the baby in the bassinet nearby.  At least when we wake up together, I can cuddle her, tickle and play a bit more.  We sing songs together (now we are making up songs about the two sisters), count fingers and toes, and decide on breakfast.  (She typically wishes to opt OUT of breakfast for more toy-time with Buzz Lightyear and Grammy who is here to save the day while I recover.)  Thank goodness for slow waking mornings, no work (yet) and a happy souled child.

And since my writing time is limited (mostly by Zoe’s desire to help me type….not so helpful, actually), I have found that this time of night (or the last night feeding) has my brain working overtime.  I have found myself revisiting writing topics and thoughts that I had when teaching writing.  When time moved slowly enough that everyone stopped to just write for 15 minutes.  I miss that time.  I think writing helps me organize my world and learning.  While I don’t consider myself “a writer”, writing comes from the heart and soul of who i am and I have always found myself writing or doodling my world around me.  It helps me think about the lessons life has taught me and the ones I am still trying hard to learn.  In fact, I found this site: that gives people writing prompts just to get started.  The one I found tonight was “Share what you’ve learned lately”.  Oh, I had to cover my chuckle a bit so as not to wake the household up.  What have I learned lately?  OH MY.  Here’s my list.  I hope you will share yours too.  Truly!  I want to know what you are learning lately too!

  1. When baby and toddler naps coincide, EVERYONE in the house is happy and napping.  And when they don’t, it makes for a long day.
  2. There is no way I will wake up for the first few hours of the early morning…which is perfect as there is NO way my love WON’T wake up then.  (And conversely, he can’t seem to wake in the early morning when I can.  I’m telling you…match-made-in-heaven!)
  3. My local CostCo (thank you, Mom, for the first outing NOT to a doctor’s office in almost THREE WEEKS!) carries frozen GREEN garbanzo beans!?!?!  Needless to say, I am now the proud owner of a monster-sized bag of these little babies.  My brain is whirling with ideas.  now.. if only my body will have the energy to pull the ideas together.  I know the Chicklet will munch on a few for lunch a la edamame (like she LOVES) but am not sure just what I will do with the rest. Have any ideas to share?
  4. If there is ONE diaper to change…. there will definitely be another at the *exact same time* as the first.  That’s just the way it is around here.
  5. There is no better cure for slow healing than your Mom.  No matter how old you are.  I almost snuck in to bed with her at 5:30 in the morning yesterday just for a cuddle.  😀
  6. I have no idea how I arrived at the girls’ pediatrician appointments on time as I have been unable to organize any other outing in any timely manner since.  (It must have been Divine Intervention.)
  7. You can read a story 8,000 times in a row.  You will still be asked to read it again and the giggles will still come – as will the screeches of delight and terror (the Chicklet is currently freaked out by gloves…long story about a high school kid stocking milk and thinking it would be funny to reach his gloved hand out over the milk jugs and growl “ROAR” at my barely two-year old daughter who was traumatized.)  Who knew that “If You Give a Mouse a Cookie” could provide such a wide range of emotions repeatedly?  :)
  8. There is nothing sweeter than holding my Love’s hand as we cuddle the two little sisters together.  Nothing.
  9. There are so many more things I need to learn – and will learn – as this parenting adventure continues,  Part of me is completely exhausted at the mere thought of the adventures to come and the other parts of me tingle with curiosity and intrigue.  I want to cherish every second with my girls while they are young but I long to know them and see them when they are bigger.  i wonder what they will be like, what will make them laugh, what will drive them, where they will go/travel, what adventures we can share, etc. but I don’t want my wondering about their futures to speed up their present or make me miss the beauty of the moment with their little hands in mine.  OH LIFE is unfair.  Somedays I just want it all to continue for an eternity for us all.
  10. I am blessed to have BOTH of my parents able to meet and love my children.  Children I never thought I would be blessed enough to hold, love and have.  Children who I never thought would have the chance to know my Dad’s scratchy beard-kisses, warm hand caresses or silly songs that he sings.  Or maybe they would miss out on my Mom’s sweet touches, tender loving games, joyful support or their dreams and imaginations.  Maybe I just think that by watching my girls interact with my Mom and my Dad, I am able to relive the moments I hold dear in my heart of being little within my Mom and Dad’s loving protection.  I am a lucky girl.  That much is true.
  11. I have learned that I need to write.  That I love to write.  And that writing brings my peace.

What about you?  What have you learned this week or recently?

Back again when I get time to type with a recipe for a Fresh Peach Dutch Pancake and/or a low-fat apple-sweetened scrumptious potato salad.

Happy GF adventures and life learning!

Welcome to the world, Baby Rory!

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Rory!, originally uploaded by Kate Chan.

This is probably the second most difficult post I have ever written. The first announced the arrival of the Chicklet via an open letter to her from her Baba and I. This is difficult only because the wait was hard, the work to bring little Rory forth into life was one that demanded enduring patience, faith and strength. And she is finally here for us to love, hold, and get to know. .

Oh! My eyes fill with tears of joy when I think of both of my girls. I see them now – each napping next to the other. The big sister laying next to the little sister – the Chicklet mimicking the Peanut’s pose in sleep (complete with Big Sister boppy pillow). She so desperately wants to play and share her toys with her new little buddy. Now begins Zoe’s test of patience and endurance as it will be a while before Rory is up to a good round of TinkerToy building, I think.

Success!  She's here!

Success! She’s here!

Rory’s arrival came on Friday, July 16th at 11:29PM…. after 40 hours of hoping via labor that she would arrive, the doctor informed me that she would be coming via c-section. Not exactly what I had hoped, but to be honest, I knew better than to “plan” anything but just go with the flow. After 40 hours, my Love and I were just ready to meet this baby. (And I was *SO* ready to be able to get out of bed! NOT like that happened right away…but I was asking to get out of bed the next morning even before feeling had completely returned to my toes. LOL!) (And for those of you into baby stats, Ms. Rory arrived weighing 6 pounds, 3 ounces; 19 inches.)

We have been lucky to have had family from Chicago (my Love’s parents, sister, 3 nieces (ages 7 and two 1 year old twins), a nephew (age 3), my sister Alice (sister of the heart, for sure!) and her 96 year old mother) and my parents too. Everyone has met, loved, and fallen head-over-heels for the newest member of the family. And of course, we are enamored too.

While she may have a 1:22 chance of having or developing Celiac Sprue in her lifetime, she is completely 1 in a million (or more) for us.

More when I’m awake……. don’t worry – I have some more baking/cooking recipes to come. Even though I’m not up and about yet, I have a few that I made before the babe made her appearance…. so never fear! Good gluten-free food is always here!

Happy Gluten Free Summer Days to ALL!
~Kate & Family